My Reality

Is my imagination running away

Or is all this really happening to me

Am I a prince in a far away land filled with fantasy?

Where is reality and what are the actions that will define who I am?

I am holding onto the visions I've seen of what I could be

It's what I should be

CHORUS:

More than it seems these dreams inside (show me the way to these dreams)

Blur reality's line ('til there's nothing that's left of me)

If I could believe the dreams aside (show me the way to these dreams)

I am capable more than it seems

Passing through darkness into my own world

Will I be more than when I left (than when I left)

Never letting go of the lessens I learned

This will make a change

A change within me

CHORUS:

More than it seems these dreams inside (show me the way to these dreams)

Blur reality's line ('til there's nothing that's left of me)

If I could believe the dreams aside (show me the way to these dreams)

I am capable more than it seems

This time I won't run away

I found the strength to face life's long days

This time I won't run away

CHORUS:

More than it seems these dreams inside (show me the way to these dreams)

Blur reality's line ('til there's nothing that's left of me)

If I could believe the dreams aside (show me the way to these dreams)

I am capable more than it seems

'Til there's nothing left of me

Show me the way to these dreams

"More Then It Seems"

Kutless

In my mind...

So many thoughts fill my head. They toss and they turn and they yell and they scream. When one is answered many others follow in its steps, soaring before my eyes like a moving puzzle too stubborn to be resolved. That’s when one creeps into the pile and whispers softly to me: “How vast is a mind? Because yours must be the size of the universe…”

A Message...

I’m at war with the world and they

Try to pull me into the dark

I struggle to find my faith

As I’m slippin’ from your arms

It’s getting harder to stay awake

And my strength is fading fast

You breathe into me at last

Chorus

I’m awake I’m alive

Now I know what I believe inside

Now it’s my time

I’ll do what I want ’cause this is my life

here, right now

I’ll stand my ground and never back down

I know what I believe inside

I’m awake and I’m alive

I’m at war with the world cause I

Ain’t never gonna sell my soul

I’ve already made up my mind

No matter what I can’t be bought or sold

When my faith is getting weak

And I feel like giving in

You breathe into me again

Chorus

Waking up waking up

In the dark

I can feel you in my sleep

In your arms I feel you breathe into me

Forever hold this heart that I will give to you

Forever I will live for you

Chorus

"Awake and Alive"

Skillet   

Run Away

The concrete rolled along under me as my feet took me amiably without destination. My mind twisted and tangled the many thoughts that erupted in my head, attempting to create order from all the chaos I inflicted. My feet felt heavy as I stumbled on, the questions becoming ever so darker and harder to unfold. That´s when I was struck by the cruel truth. In my amble wandering I had unconsciously stepped over the barrier I had created to avoid past recollections of pain and sorrow. But now I had seen it, gazed into its very eyes, and the pain I desperately tried to shield away corrupted me once again, the ivory chains binding me in fear, restraining me. The wound in my chest that had taken so long to heal was now crying rivers of crimson tears.

 

I stopped in mid-steps, the darkness sinking it fangs into my soul while crystal drops poured from my eyes. I had to get away. I had to run away. I still wasn´t strong enough to fight it, to face it…

The wind caressed my face as it whistled passed me. The cool air froze the wet trail upon my face so I couldn’t cry anymore. I opened my eyes and gazed around. The streets and buildings flew past me as my feet desperately tried to take me away to some refuge where I could be alone, where the silence and the darkness would once again heal the scar that I had accidentally pried open. As I ran, heading for nowhere, looking for no one, I realized: I was all alone in the dark, seeing only what the moon´s light wanted to show me. Yet even though the sorrow clawed desperately at my heart, the feeling was refresing, for as I ran I felt unchallenged, unchained, unleashed, untroubled…I felt free...

Which way?

Which way is the right one? The easiest always leads to destruction while the longest and hardest leads to truth. Yet as you look at it you understand that although the shortest may end badly it can always be pieced together even if it is poorly crafted. So technically you end up wasting just as much time on both paths…

So the question remains: Which way?

Would it be better to take the shortest and glue back the pieces or would it be best to take the long one and reach the end in a way far different then you expected, may it be for the better or for the worse?

Two sides of a coin, two different colors: black and white, two ways of karma: ying and yang, two opposing words: yes and no, two distinct decisions: either this or that, here or there, up or down, left or right…

Why must the world be split in two straight halves when in between is where you always find yourself?

The day has come...

I awoke with the sun’s rays heating my face, their warm touch comfortable and soothing on that cold morning. Yet as I laid on my bed, staring amiably at the ceiling, something felt wrong. I felt heavy and my muscles were tense, like a huge weight had been thrown upon me while I was sleeping and only now I began to feel its pressure. I twisted around and passed my fingers over my back, near the shoulder blades, however nothing was there. Yet even though I couldn’t touch it I could feel it there, weighing me down. Someone knocked at the door, bringing me back from my sea of thoughts.

My mother rushed into my room, a brilliant smile on her face, a smile I hadn’t seen in a long time and I smiled too. She gazed at me, a gift in one hand and two words on her lips: Happy Birthday!

Understanding suddenly crept into my heart and crawled into the depths of my soul. The chains that binded my wings for so long was undone at last. Now all the responsibility, the worry, the troubles – all that the chains held back now rested upon my shoulders. The burden I had always feared now greeted me with open arms. The day had finally come…

Yet as my mother came skipping over to my side, anxious to see me open my gift, I realized: I still needed time to get used to the burden they had given me, I needed time to learn and to understand, and only then would I be able to open my wings and fly towards the freedom I so longed for…

…but not yet…

The first step down a long path...

This is me for forever

One of the lost ones

The one without a name

Without an honest heart as compass

This is me for forever

One without a name

These lines the last endeavor

To find the missing lifeline

Oh how I wish

For soothing rain

All I wish is to dream again

My loving heart

Lost in the dark

For hope I'd give my everything
(...)

Nightwish

 "Nemo"