What happens now?
After my last nervous breakdown I feel like I have no purpose, like I'm wandering without destination, empty... hollow... Living through someone else's eyes a life that isn't mine. Living because I'm alive...
...I ceased to care for the things that should matter, paying attention only to the milde things around me. Perfering to solve other peoples problems in hope they would make me forget my own...
Why do I live if there is just nothing worth living for?
Let's just runaway... I don't know where, but it doesn't even matter, anywhere is better than this.
ReplyDeleteI'm living like you, with no purpose, apparently, and still i'm trying.
I'm trying to reach the heart of that person, i'm trying to do my best at school, i'm trying to be that guy my family wants me to be, and i'm not giving up. Because I know there is something better, I just have to wait until then.
So... wait with me (=
kiss and hugs,
Pedro
There is always something worth living for. Nothing is ever night, it could be a dark gray, but there is always a shade of white. It takes time to find, and pacience. I know...because I feel just like you. I look at the world around me and see nothing worth fightning for, hence nothing worth being. It's disturbing not to now what your suppose to do right? Feeling stuck in the middle of a path you didn't even realise you walked until you actually stopped and looked back. It all seems a waste of time right? That's what I feel at least. But I know there must be something...and if there isn't, well heck I'll just have to make my own something!
ReplyDeleteYou know I don't mind making it together, with all those who can't find there meaning.
Wow, that's going to be one hell of a light.
oxoxo Aishteiru!