I'm tired. I'm so tired of all the crap I have to deal with when I get home. I'm tired of this personal Hell I arrive to everyweekend when it should be my personal Sanctuary. I'm tired of the all the words, the yells, the remarks, the orders, the blackmail, the tempers...
Oh, how I long for that moment, the moment I will stand up to him and speak my mind. So many things I wish to tell him, so many truths I wish to confront him with so he can shut up for good. All these things put into a simple and meaningless word: goodbye.
I've play the scene countless of times in my head yet they all come to the same end: Us yelling, me turning my back to him and walking out the door with that word ending it all, all my problem, all my worries, all my stress, all my sadness...That one word that will solve everything.
But until then all I can do is scream...
Wishes can come true..
ReplyDeleteAnd if you keep your wish burning in your heart, when you say goodbye, it will burn deep, as hot and scorching as the hell you are in now. Rage is a powerfull thing, when bottled up with disapointment and sadness. It's the ultimate weapon we have, so don't give up on it now. That vision is closer by the minute. Hang in there onee-chan. Hell is about to freeze over. And I'll be with you every step of the way. It's going to feel even better with you beside me.
oxoxo Aishteiru!